i thought it was LOVE

i think it was last year that my BestBuddy informed me about MedicineMan.


BB is a college friend and his adventures with guys is no secret to me. it was last year that he told me about MM. MM, according to him is someone he met at a social network site (i think it was pr) and had sex with several times in the past. a year after the first sex, the two became good friends and decided to take things to the next level.

i saw BB change from a malanding gigolo to committed man. he was falling in love with MM everyday. When i met MM in person, i thought, yeah, he's loveable, witty and nice.

last week, BB called. crying. he revealed the truth behind the "happy relationship." MM is not loyal. Since BB is a businessman and goes out of the country very often, MM plays a lot whenever BB is out. he caught MM on phone with other guys. and on several occasion, he read messages on MM's phone that gives out MM's activities whenever he is out.

he was devastated. after all the changes and the loyalty and commitment he offered to MM, this is what he got from him.

when he tried to talk to MM, this is what MM told him, "ganito na talaga ako eh. tanggapin mo na lang na ganito ako. hindi na ako magbabago. kung gusto mo, lets have an open relationship. kung di mo kaya, let's just be friends."

i thought it was love. the kind of love that entails commitment and loyalty.

is it really possible to have that kind of love on our world dear friends?

fuck off you moron!

i was minding my own business while surfing fb when suddenly i got a chat message.

it was from a former acquaintance whom i had sex, once.
hi and hello. he asked if im still going in laguna and asked if i was still seeing a certain guy.

it turned out that the guy was his friend and that guy told him that something happened between us.
he was so makulet in asking me details of what happened.

i said no. i don't want to talk about it. and he kept on insisting.

i am getting pissed.

what does he want to point out? does he want to go to bed with me again??
why not tell me to my face that he wanted sex???
why does he have to put his hands into something he should not be minding of????

grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

i am so tempted to reveal his identity and hope that people who look up to him will read this blog and know what he does in secrets. he used to lead. he should know how to mind his own business. fuck! who the hell is he???

he's not even good in bed!
i was so pissed i told him,

you should tell your friend we also had sex. and that you were moaning crazily all the time. and that after one round of awful sex, i threw you out of my room!

bastard bitch!
he used to head sfc in one town in quezon and now he is the adviser of the group.
how i wanted to shout his name in this blog!

fuck off you moron!

running out of words... uninspired?

i have so many things to say. but not a bit of inspiration left to do writing.

what do i need to do dear readers?

small world

PAST

i was watching cinema alone. i saw him itago natin sia sa pangalang boylet. he saw me. he changed his seat. 3 kembot away from me. after several glances, me isang lalaking umupo sa tabi nia. kasama niya pala. siguro boyfriend niya...


pero putanginangpaksyet, habang si "BF" ay aliw na aliw sa pinapanood, si boylet tingin nang tingin saken! putah! makapag CR nga.

nang biglang....  SUMUNOD!!!

oo ginigiliw kong mga tagasubaybay... sumunod si boylet sa cr!
habang ako ay nasa washing area, at siya ay umiihi.. nakita ko ang hindi dapat makita pero pinapakita.
oo. tiningnan ko. pinagnasahan. pero hanggang dun lang. wala sa dicksyunary ko ang mang ahas ng jowa ng may jowa. lalo na kung panakaw lang ang sandali. ayoko nga ang bitin! hahaha

that night umuwi akong may ngiti sa aking labi. sabi ko.. one day magkikita ulet tayo.. :D

FAST FORWARD...

dun sa bago kong location ng nilipatan ng bahay, aba, nakita ko sia. dali dali akong nag research sa mga kapitchever at nakilala ko sia. inadd sa fb. heto ang drama...

boylet: uy thank you sa pag add.

ako: uy hello. (kiyeme lang syempre)

boylet: nasa haus ka?

ako: oo. ikaw?

boylet: uu..

ako: parang nakita na kita before?

boylet: sa toooot.

ako: hindi ko matandaan! remind me.. (chos! tinitingnan ko lang kung aamin sia na pinakita nia burat nia saken! hahaha)

boylet: dun sa tooooooooot.

ako: ah oki! naalala ko na.. naalala ko na lahat ng nakita ko...

boylet: ikaw nga..

ako: bf mo ung kasama mo?

boylet: huh? hindi ah! ginawa mo pa akong bading!

ako: ah ganun ba? sorry. :)

muntik na akong tumambling.
mga ate naman.. kayo, ano sa palagay niyo?

di kasi ako mapalagay eh.. chos! :D

someone special...

its was the night i met with the gang. and the night i did something stupid.
can i use your fb account to check on ex status?

"cooked white adobo for someone special..."

putanginangpaksyet.

etong kaibigan ko, nagtanong...
masakit loob mo kasi hindi ka nilutuan ng adobo??

its not about the adobo. wala akong pakialam kahit puti man yan or itim or pink!

ang masakit lang eh... parang in the entire existence namin sa buong universe,
parang never akong natawag nun as



someone special...?

Hiwaga

sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na dahilan, MASAYA ako sa mga nakaraang 3 araw.
hindi ko maintindihan bakit. basta masaya lang ako.

• nagpopost ako ng kung anu-anong status sa facebook.
• naglalaro ako ng cafe world
• nagboblog ako sa blogspot
• very active ang aking brain cells sa pag-iisip ng kung ano anong bagay na pedeng gawin
• very energetic ako maghapon kahit maraming trabaho

hindi ko alam.

• hindi ako naka-enervon
• wala akong titi lalake sa buhay
• hindi rin ako naglalalabas ng bahay

bakit nga ba ako masaya?

ung saya na kahit nakatingin ka sa kawalan eh nakangiti ka pa rin?
ung saya na ang gaan gaan ng pakirandam mo at feeling mo kayang kaya mong kumarir 24 oras?
ung saya na kahit kausap ka lang ng tao eh nahahawa sia ka kakulitan mo?

bakit nga baaaaaaaa??? nasisiraan na ba ako ng bait???

or this is just me moving on and finding myself... once again? :)

Finding Nimmy

yesterday, i had a pleasant surprise at the end of the day. what was it?

I FOUND NIMMY! :)

yes. nimmy the blogger! finally! a chatting blogger! and not just chatting, he's a perky little one! and im starting to love him! (hmmm.. leo, i don't mean romantic love ok? :) ) look how perky he was last night!

nimmy's blog is one of my favorite blog. simple. easy to read. and at every post, i leave the site wearing a smile.





thanks nimmy for being a wonderful surprise last night. :) i hope to meet you and leo in person someday! :)

you'll find nimmy's site here and leo's site here. :) enjoy!